Last Monday’s post was my most successful yet – comments and hits wise that is and possibly one of the most successful in a helpful way too – unfortunately that doesn’t come up on the analytics 
. I would like to thank everyone who released emotions which they no longer wished to carry the full weight of and trust that in some small way it has made you feel lighter and added to your inner growth.
I will take a guess here and surmise that for some of you a fear had to be overcome to place a comment and I wanted you who did over come a fear to know that last Monday I had a fear too. It wasn’t in writing the post as only I was seeing it, yet as I went to push the publish button I hesitated, I doubted myself and quavered. My last post was different from my usual Monday sort, a move away from my comfort zone. I could feel the build up inside me, I was a bit scared and put it down to maybe it wasn’t a good time to do a post like this – what if I offend someone, what if no one comments, what if this and what if that…
As I sat there thinking whether ‘to publish or not to publish’ I began to wonder if maybe the feeling was just plain old fear; fear of doing something differently, of expanding, of growing. Which one was it? Then I remembered a piece I read in a magazine about a woman who had come through an experience of cancer. When asked what positive had come out of her experience she said she would no longer waste another day not feeling totally liberated to be whoever she wanted to be. Then I thought of all those people who have done great things in their life and often when asked, they too, say that they had to over come personal fear.
I decided then it was just plain old fear so proceeded with finishing off the post. All the while the feeling kept chipping away, but I pressed on reminding myself not to succumb to it for it was only trying to keep me living a ‘small life’. By the time I had finished doing all the extra bits like picking the picture etc it was too late for fear to grip me fully. I had walked through it and was already on the other side with enough inner oomph to push the publish button.
~~ When I feel fear rising within I usually picture it as a wall of sheer muslin type curtains [hence the above picture], don’t ask me why, it’s just how it appears to me. Obscuring what I want to see, do and be yet at the same time powerless to hold me back if I choose to move forward. The curtains offer the illusion of resistance but really there is none for it is all self imposed. So I picture myself walking through them and feeling the fear/curtains gently waft over me as I pass through. No harm can be done as the fear is weightless in comparison to the motion of me moving forward – both physically and mentally. The fear becomes insignificant. Only not moving forward stops me from being all I can be as only not moving forward stops you from being all you can be.
Which of your fears will you walk through?
Enjoy
Photo by independentman
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